The Library that I Leaned On – An Autobiographical Appreciation of Books that Facilitated My Overcoming of Ulcerative Colitis

For some time, I have considered posting a blog with a reading recommendation list. The list alone, I have figured, would not be sufficient. As such, I’ve since decided to offer a biographical reading list, explaining where I was at the time of reading the following books and why I found them important and impactful in my journey of overcoming

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The Six Honest Serving Men: The Benefit and Utility of asking Ourselves Questions on the Healing Journey

With the right questions, by going inside, by examining the self, the soul, going into the library of the psyche, investigating past traumas, whether in the here and now or another existence, whatever the case, I have found that the impact and utility of a good question can work wonders. It provides a greater service than all the drugs and all the diets in the world.

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In Recognition of the Lighthouse Keepers

How do we survive? We survive because of God’s grace, the grace of invisible angels and miraculous helpers, and of course, the momentary boosts of energy that waft our way mysteriously. When I think of the past year, unemployed, looking for work, finishing a novel I had been struggling to complete, I know it could have been worse. I consider the life of the Russian writer, Pavel Petrovich Bazhov (1879-1950)

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In agony, the gift - the blessing of pain

Not so much the most comforting thing to hear. None of those men and women could offer any further advice or consolation. Back then, I couldn’t help but think, these people who’ve spent years and years in medical school, what have they really learned? They weren’t doctors but walking pharmacopoeias with limits.

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Christijan Robert Broerse
Paramours of a complacent suffering: the unquestionable allure of illness

From a place of retrospect, it makes sense that she was so curt in her response. With over fifteen thousand subscribers to her channel, each video getting three thousand plus views, why would she change her channel’s format? Suffering was the secret to her success. When you’re not sick, how can you have the attention? Where is your identity now? Healing would mean shooting the goose laying the golden egg.

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Interpreting Medicinal Metempsychosis or a defence of past life regression therapy to aid in the healing of ulcerative colitis

While I definitely adhere to the concept of cell memory, others may have trouble with the radical and unconventional idea. There are many who want to heal but perhaps feel this unorthodox, off-the-beaten-path approach far too wild to even consider going down.

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The tender pulse of pardon - redemption and forgiveness in The Marriage of Figaro

On the one level, the Count is an antagonist, a ruling party pooper. Yet he is more than comic fodder. Mozart knew this. We feel pathos for the short-sided man. This character blindly spends the entire opera in this mire of anger and longing, conspiring to pain and manipulate, to wrongfully seduce another man’s wife. He has no regard for his actions, no awareness of what his intentions might entail; from a limited perception based upon his own righteous self-justification, he is attempting to undermine the order and happiness of the day. Towards the end of the opera, the veil begins to life for the Count, and he soon has eyes to see.

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A bowel barbed in self-cruelty

…with my Opa. After all my research, I finally understood that my body back in March 1997 was expressing a latent grief. I thought of a friend’s sister. Jess had got the Crohn’s disease following her grandmother’s hit-and-run accident. The raging sorrow. My gut back then at the age of 17 was crying. It was doing the weeping for me.

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Beethoven: The struggle to overcome

Here, in Vienna, more specifically the 19th district of Heiligenstadt (literally, ‘healing city’), the museum’s intent is on exploring the daily habits of the composer while in the former spa municipality. After buying a ticket, one begins the journey in a shaded courtyard, where the various sections of the house are numbered. There are the composing rooms, the performing rooms and what I found fascinating, the rooms for recuperation or rather, section 2, the rooms for ‘rejuvenating’ — the German, Erholen.

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Christijan Robert Broerse
Towards a Philosophy of Illness: Encountering Moses Maimonides in Córdob-

Maimonides, a man of profound thinking and influence, was affected by these years of upheaval. Like many of his Arabic-speaking Jewish and Christian contemporaries, he fled the country with his family, landing upon the nearby shores of North Africa, specifically Morocco then Fostat (Old Cairo) in Egypt. Following this exodus, Moses’ father died a year later in their new adopted land and Moses’ younger brother, David, a merchant and a man determined to make his success in the East, drowned on a trip to the Indian Sea (today, Indian Ocean).

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Christijan Robert Broerse
Allegory of the helm and helmsman: the self-as-body's journey forward into the storm

When the flames broke out and rose again, it almost consumed my ship. After a disastrous bout in the hospital, one where I was humiliated and patronized by physicians, I started to turn away from the medical community to learn more about the power of spirituality and emotional healing. Drugs could only go skin deep. I needed to remove the true source of the disease’s fire.

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